my eyes hurt

you know what I just realized. I spent this whole day not saying a word to anyone. I just came back to my room and even though it's full of pictures of my friends, it's so empty. I think I had enough of 'my alone time'. I can't wait to move in with a few of my new friends and have these BBQs in the garden. And I can't wait to have morning coffee and toast in the kitchen at the table with my guurls.
Yes I talk to people online, but now I realize how different it actually is. People need other people.

I've never been like really sad or angry to be alone on a Valentine's day. But to be honest, I always thought that when I will come to UK and start my uni life, it will all be different. Remember, 'new people, new experiences' that crap. Well, you know what. Most of the people here are even worse than I thought. We all know UK is kinda famous of its duck face hoes and guys, who say you are beautiful just to get you to be, right? Well I did not think there's so many of them.

This video kinda helped me a little bit. Just for a few moments. Then I opened a bottle of cider and it all went down again.

And I'm really sorry that I didn't smile back to the guy in the elevator, just because I was so pissed at the world.