Tuesday, 21 January 2014

today has been a lucky day.
got an offer from bristol.

Pressure of the future, too much for today
How many hours will I let slip away
Before I realize existing and living
Are not the same

balta drobulė man nepatiko, bet rašyti kitokiu stiliumi, nei minčių srautas, aš tiesiog nemoku.

Tuesday, 7 January 2014

or will you?

a walk to school in the morning is not a perfect time for a meltdown, I can assure you.

this song made everything so awful and I still can't stop listening to it.

the main thing why I suddenly got so sad lies between the lyrics of this song  "If it wasn't for you, I'd be alone". Considering that the whole wave of studying abroad is extremely low at this time and almost every single one of my friends are staying here, made me rethink my future. I know that I don't want to study here. But if I leave, I'll be completely on my own. I know I'm dreaming of days like grabbing old romance book from a vintage bookstore and reading it at Starbucks, but even if I'll have days like this... What about the times, when all my friends back here will be going out to parties where beat-makers are their friends, where the music is known and listened together? I don't know what is ahead of me.

Sunday, 5 January 2014

nustok sproginėt

5th of January. Tomorrow is the 6th. In one week 12th. Deadlines at 15th. Stop going so fast, time, please.

Right now, as I think about it, I had such an eventful holidays. I absolutely love the tattoo I got, extremely happy about the theory exam for a driving licence and a bit disappointed about IELTS exam results, but at least it is enough.