no. x trip to london

thursday and friday. 15.12.10/11
woke up as soon as I was able to after getting home at 4 in the morning, just because I was working till 3am. realised that today is the day, when I'm travelling to London to see Hudson Mohawke live again. the whole day of the journey was such a mess. I didn't have time to do anything I needed to. but the second I got into my delayed train to Euston, switched my ipod on with Hudson's new album 'Lantern', I knew, everything is going to be just fine.
It was so amazing to stand near The Roundhouse with a friend in the middle of London, drink whiskey and smoke while it's pouring down with rain and thinking 'we're about to see him. second time this year.'
I actually managed to get the tracklist from one of the security guards. And Gabby bought the vinyl. And after we got back home to her place, we played it. And turned on the Christmas lights. And it was magical.
the next day we decided to look up the vintage markets.
accidentally, we stumbled upon a really nice vinyl shop, spent there ages looking through different records. realised that there's so much wonderful music in this life that we haven't heard before, it's unimaginable. checked out winter wonderland, had a few pints. and of course, ended up near the tower bridge, my favorite place in London.

also, found Brick lane and remembered the song of Fingalick - 1000 nights, and its lyrics

" Now you drink wine in Trafalgar square, 

you can smoke on top of the London eye, 

the queen herself will brush your hair, 

and critics will shelter you and I, 

now you can get drunk in Brick Lane, 

now you can make love on the rooftops, 

for some it's just another place, 

but I will stay here, till my heart stops." 

firefly

can't believe that november flew past so fast (that rhymed).
seems like halloween was ages ago, and I wanted to tell you about that.
when i was preparing for my 20th birthday, I wanted to tell you about it.
after I had the amazing night celebrating it, I wanted to tell you about it.
when I felt really depressed and sorry for myself after a week, I wanted to tell you about it.
but as you can see, november is completely empty. But I did start writing my own kind of a diary, not online this time.
perhaps I should just share pictures and write a bit more when I feel like it.

^ I wrote this probably like a week ago.
Didn't end up publishing it, cause I was too lazy to upload pictures from my phone, but I will promise, I'll do it tonight.
Right now I'm listening "Kaip tu ir sakei" which is a song I always put on repeat for the whole day after some posts it on facebook. And I'm also thinking about my trip to London. I'm going to see Hudson Mohawke AGAIN. literally, I'm sooooo excited. I believe I wrote a post about him, that I'm a fan since '09 and that I saw him play at Field Day festival this year. Cannot believe I'm seeing him again so soon. The next dream to see an artist live would be Flume. But he rarely comes to UK.

I've also downloaded the new Justin Bieber album. I know, I know, I'm an alternative electronic kinda gal, I shouldn't listen to JB, but oh my god his new songs are SO good. My fave is The feeling, you should give it a listen.

Uni is okay, still feel a bit lost, but there's no where to run, so I have to go on with it.

Work is okay as well, weekends don't feel like weekends anymore. You realize that it is Friday tomorrow just when you get a payslip email on Thursday evening.But I'm really happy that I joined my Offtowork family. Like, all the people I call my friends right now I know from work. And I used to have some thoughts about leaving and getting a proper part-time job, just because you can't get a proper schedule with offtowork, but right now it would be really hard, some shifts work doesn't even feel like work when you are surrounded by your friends.

Also, I'm really looking forward to go home for Christmas this year. Accidentally, me and three friends of mine, also fellow lithuanian offtoworkers bought the same tickets and will be going home on the same flight! Haven't been in Lithuania for 8 months. The longest I've been away.

I was helping out a friend with her assignments past two Mondays, and I can say, it was really weird spending hours in a make up chair and then standing in front of a proper photographer, even if it was just for a hew shots.

 

While I was copying the pictures from my phone to the laptop, rewatched all the snaps I saved this past year, and there are so many good ones! I definitely have to do a post of my favorite snaps one day ! ^^

From fairy tale to horror story

It's probably a really bad idea to write a blog post when you're in the library, but I spent 5 hours here today and I need a break. Everyone around me will probably think that I'm writing a lab report or an essay, but hey ho. I really really really wanted to publish a post on 28th of September, because it was kind of an 1 year anniversary of me being on my own in England. And I had loads of different thoughts what to write, like, to sum up my whole year. But as you can see, that didn't happen. And I'm certain that had loads of things to tell you guys after that, but right now I can't remember a thing.
Quite a few things happened the past week, but I'm not sure I want to get into this, since my blog is kind of public.
I realized something really important and rather pathetic. I am unable to love myself if there's no one around loving me. Yep, that is literally like smacking down my confidence levels, but it's true. (And I'm not talking about friendship kind of love or mother-daughter kind of love.) And even though I realized it while being completely wasted, I'm sober now and I can confirm that this state of mind is getting to me way too quickly. For some of you this might make no sense whatsoever. I'm guessing for the most of you. But to be honest, I can't feel comfortable in my own skin unless someone would show me how to do it.
Ohh, this is getting rather depressing. Perhaps I should go.
I will insert some pictures from that week, just so I could look back on this and remember what I was all about, because for the really old posts, where I didn't insert any actual pictures from my phone, I have no clue what I'm talking about.

I know my room is a mess, the order of these photos is a mess, BUT YOU SHOULD SEE MY LIFE.

OK GUYS, i was just looking through my computer to see if I've got Back to the future, CAUSE IT'S BACK TO THE FUTURE DAY, and I found a video from 2014 summer. accurate one, sorry, lithuanian. The time I was free and careless.

Revival

Oh my god I wanted to write a blog post for such a long time! I have so much to tell you, but just can't find a minute to sit down and write it all down. Even now, I'm in a car going to Chichester for the weekend to work at Revival!

First thing, I bought tickets to go back to Lithuania for Christmas and New years. Well, kind of for Christmas, because I'm flying out on the 26th. This summer, since I stayed in the UK I realized that work and money is not on my priority list. Of course, it is something that you have to make time to to have an opportunity to even buy tickets to fly back, but I missed last Christmas and I worked on last New years eve and I think deserve it.

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When I was typing this, my friend asked me " did we lost you to basketball? " (because I was watching the game but since the signal on the highway is crap, I decided to write a blog post). And then I thought I should just enjoy this moment being with my colleagues while singing loudly in the car. Now I'm back at home and finally having some time to sit down and write the post.
Even though the weekend was amazing it was also extremely tiring. I know I earned a lot of money by doing 14-15 hours a day, but yet again sometimes it just feels that it is not worth it. Anyway, I'm just glad it ended.

Back in March I worked with the company in the trailers for the first time and I wrote a post as well.

 We went to Chichester, West Sussex. I worked in Goodwood Organic Food van for two days as a cashier. Wore silly uniform. Got completely exhausted. But still, coming back to our caravan after a long shift and having diner with my co-workers was really awesome.

That is what I wrote back then and even though the people were different this time, I felt the same harmony being in a warm caravan with my friends just chilling, having a glass of wine and watching big bang theory after exhausting day at work.

I sincerelly wanted to write a lot, every single day something happened that I wanted to write about for the past few weeks, but right now I just I can't think of anything important enough. That is why I have to write more often, I forget these simple little things that make my day look brighter so fast. I need to keep them in my blog, so if one day comes and I would be in an awful mood, I could just  open my blog and feel that it is actually just one of those days and it gets better.

I will put some embarrassing photos just because of that reason. Cause you never know, it might get deleted somehow from my computer one day and maybe it will stay on this blog for way longer.
PS I have this bruise on my face that is annoying the crap out of me. And no, I'm not so hard core, I didn't get into a street fight or something. I just simply hit my face in to the handle of my bike while I was fixing the pedals and I was in a hurry. Seriously, I'm like Ross from Friends, ' I bruise like a peach' ( to be honest, my whole legs and arms are covered in bruises I have no idea where from).

PPS. Someone thought I'm from New Zealand this past weekend. I never got that before in my life.

paintball & Manchester

Currently I'm sitting in my bed with my new favorite black hoodie from Primark men section with half straighten hair and no make up on while listening to music through new earphones. And it actually feels really good.

I have to tell you about the recent trips I had.

On Tuesday, 18th, our office organised the trip to Paintball! We visited Delta Force near Birmingham. It was an interesting experience. Even though I ended up with some hurtful bruises on my legs and arms, I spent the time with my colleagues, whom I can easily call my friends now. 

If you want to feel some adrenaline Paintball is definitely a place to go, but it can get a bit dangerous sometimes. The masks we had to wear were quite uncomfortable and tight sometimes and it was really temping to take it off, but we were not allowed to since if you get a 'paint bullet' in your eye, you can go blind. 

On Wednesday, five of us girls decided to visit Manchester. Comparing my other trips to Bristol or Brighton, I would have to say that I was not that impressed with Manchester, but to be honest I feel like weather was probably the factor that kinda ruined it. When we got off the coach the sun was shining and we all bought breakfast and coffee and sat in the first park we saw on the grass and it was amazing. We started walking around the streets, visited a few shops and galleries, but later on it started to rain. Regardless, we spend the last few hours sitting in wetherspoons talking about life and stuff, as you do. I would definitely consider visiting Manchester again, but next time I need to do the proper research what to do and see in the city.

new lust

i have been staring at this blank page for a while.

i had a really awesome night yesterday. It was one of my work friends last day in Birmingham for a while so we decided to go to a pub. to be honest, it was just another excuse to drink, since we have just a few shifts during the week. it ended up as a house party at my place. it was really weird seeing that many people in our kitchen drinking, in the garden smoking and in the living room dancing.

the song that's currently playing on my iTunes is saying 'don't think about it too much, this is more than just a new lust for you'.
I was talking to my friend about last night and I was really excited to tell her about everything that happened and stuff, but now as I'm rethinking the whole night I feel I'm getting back to that 'depressed-i-need-love' phase. I don't want to go back to that. NEVER AGAIN.

I'm also thinking about working on a new header and background for the blog. I'm pretty sure it's time to switch it up a bit, because I believe I haven't changed it since beginning of 2014.

this picture is from the comedy night we had at work. boy was it interesting atmosphere and experience. proper British.

finally found the T-Shirt I was looking for a long time. my essence.

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