happy to see you

I've got two things I would like to share with all of you today. First one being, today I woke up after a dream that made my feelings mixed up again. And so badly, I was thinking about it all day. And the most important thing is that I can't control it. I can't control what am I dreaming, right? Well, in a sense, I can, because people dream about what they are thinking most of and what they are worried or scared about. But this time, I wasn't thinking about it.
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and now as I am thinking about it.
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I was talking with my friend about it an evening before. (wow, there's a lot of 'about it', but I want to stay it that way). Maybe that influenced it.
I guess the worst thing is that I wish it was true.

The other thing, I totally had a 'movie realization' moment today. Turned to look trough the window. Saw a tree. Turned back to homework. Back at window: the leaves are changing color. Like, in that moment, I realized that MY fall is here. I can't find the words to actually express how I feel about autumn.
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All I want right now is another cup of black tea with milk and victory against France.